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Sea and Sand

2008-01-08T23:05:00.000-08:00

I visited the beach today
where once my lover and i used to tread,
Now only memories of our footsteps in the sand,
where once we walked and whispered hand in hand

Remembering

2007-10-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

Times, past remembered
with a wish upon my lips
and to feel your smooth
caressess, and your hand
upon my hips.

The Finest Flower

2007-04-13T20:39:00.000-07:00

Let me take you to the bluebell woods,
Lie down amongst the flowers,
I'll show you my pink rosebud,
and you can play with it for hours!

Let me take you to the bluebell woods,
where the heavy scent of wild garlic
and arousal fills the air,
We'll lie down amongst the flowers
our pleasures hidden
from those who seek to see,
You will bow my little goblin,
and bring out the pixie in me

New Years Resolutions

2007-01-07T10:57:00.000-08:00

To not drink so much
not to overeat
cut down on my smoking
and try and touch my feet.
Take up yoga again
open up my heart
find a man that's suitable
well that's a reasonable start.
Travel to new horizons
look at others point of view,
but how is this all posible
when I'm here without you.

Burn

2006-11-21T22:22:00.000-08:00

Red sky at night:
It’s bonfire night.
Red sky in the morning:
My true love is dawning.

2006-11-21T22:17:00.000-08:00

Ramblings

Old wives tales,
what's that all about?
You mean young single girls
can't have sayings?
What do they really mean?
You know:
'When one door closes,
another one opens.'
That’s because he slammed the door so hard
on the way out that
the backdraft caused the other one to open!
'Every cloud has a silver lining:
Yeah, but when I look up at it,
a seagull shits in my eye!
'The grass is always greener on the other side.'
What they don't tell you is your boots get covered in shit
trying to get there!
'A bird in the hand is worth two in ..........'
I ain't even going there!
(Well I have ... but that’s a different post!)
So what’s the modern equivalent?
Any ideas?
Over to you!

2006-11-12T16:13:00.000-08:00

I'm going to squirrel away all my love for you,
piece by piece.
I know, I’m a little nuts!

.........

Only You

2006-09-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

Only you can hear my blushes
on the phone.
Only you can see my secret smile
out in a crowd.
Only you can taste my burning desire
hidden deep inside.
Only you can know what my reply is
before you ask the question.
Only you have the ability
to drive me insane.
Only you
can ease this pain.

2006-08-21T00:26:00.000-07:00

As the sun sets
through the temple of Apollo
a serenity descends upon me.
The wanton goddess
inside me is aroused
with the promise of the full moon to follow.

Haven

2006-07-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

Update

2006-07-02T13:28:00.000-07:00

I am sorry I have not posted for a while, but been busy moving house.Was actually homeless for a month with delay on new place. In the end I sat in the solicitor's office for 2 hrs until he got it sorted! It wasn't all bad tho'. Hired a holiday let overlooking Brixham harbour, sat and watched the sun sets( Photos will follow!)Have now settled in, all boxes and PC unpacked. It was very therapeutic going thru all my old photos and letters etc, some I kept, others I discarded as they no longer hold a tug on the heart strings.New home, new hair do, new resolve! Have booked up my month long trip to Greece, Island-hopping by myself, end of july till end of Aug. Will try and set up blog so I can keep you updated on my progress and adventure! Only black spot on the horizon is I have finally had to admit defeat and middle age, and pick up my first pair of glasses tomorrow. Will update my photo so you can all make suitable comments!
Reflections on the last 2 months:
Life is definitely for living.
In the UK we moan about the cold, and after 2 hot days, moan about that as well! ( not me tho')
If you smile nicely, big burly men will help you carry heavy things!
and finally...
There are people who come into your life, and make you a better person, and even tho they leave, (in all senses) they still stay with you, in your heart...
oh and 8 vodkas, followed by 5 shots will make you ill!!!

First Impressions

2006-04-21T12:19:00.000-07:00

I met a cool cat last night.
You know the sort
mean and moody.
Hooded eyes
Two days growth.
Wearing a black leather jacket.
Smoking,
and drinking scotch on the rocks.
The sort girls always give a second look.
The sort on a hot tin roof.
( Or in this case down the local.
listening to Dave play the blues.)
He leaned over, all meaningful,
and asked if I was a lady?
I replied yes last time I looked,
but was he a gentleman?
He ordered another scotch,
and asked what I thought he was?
'A cool Cat', my response.
Still cool, when he told me he lived in Belgium.
Still cool, when talking about the bands he'd seen there.
Warmer, when telling me he was over here for the summer,
visiting his mum.
I lost interest when he told me he was a golf coach.
Cool cats I dig,
but swingers?
No way man,
A lady has to have some principles!

2006-04-03T15:12:00.000-07:00

MOMENTS

There are moments in your life
when you know something is going to happen
no matter what you say or do.
The inevitable.
No escape.
So it was the first time I caught your eye.
We smiled.
Nodded.
Each acknowledging our own sexuality.
Others around were oblivious
to the dance we had started.
So it started.
We did the waltz,
the tango,
and, in a fully crowded room,
the quickstep.
The hand on the back
lingered just a little too long
as we talked.
Bodies pressed just a little too close
as we passed by each other.
Eyes locked for more than the 10 second rule.
Neither one wanted to take the lead.
Each taking turns.
Then temptation could not be resisted.
Our escape was barred.
Texts followed.
Invitations were made.
So,
three weeks after our first lesson,
i find myself
in the early hours
outside your door.
Few words were spoken.
(Our mouths were on each other)
Exploring.
Wanting.
Needing.
Thirsty for yet more knowledge.
Your moves were more practiced than mine.
I was a willing pupil however.
As we moved to the bedroom,
our costumes were discarded,
our masks removed.
We were in the moment.
The here and now.
No tomorrow.
No yesteryears.
We stood in awe of our own nakedness,
each looking at a reflection of our own body.
Tender.
Gentle.
So soft.
Our last dance to be learnt.
The horizontal rumba.

In flames.

2006-03-08T09:21:00.000-08:00

You rouse in me a hunger
you set on fire my lust.
You bring out my passion
I think I will combust!

Searching

2006-03-08T09:17:00.000-08:00

I need to escape
this cold dark land
for warmer climes,
to slowly defrost
my heart.

Sorry for myself

2006-03-08T09:08:00.000-08:00

Home will bad cold and sore throat,
feeling sorry for myself,
wishing someone was here to take care of me.
Even so...
Naughty thought for today....
You,
rubbing Vic on my chest...
Getting high on the vapours!

First Anniversary of my Blog.

2006-02-23T11:59:00.000-08:00

Just realised I've been doing this madness for 1 yr now!
Wanted to share 2 of my earlier poems.
In the middle of selling and buying houses
so not much time for new stuf.
Enjoy!

Naughty thought for today!

2006-02-23T11:57:00.000-08:00

A naughty thought
crosses my mind.....
Creme caramel on me......
.....and you!

Rantings of a middle aged women.

2006-02-23T11:53:00.000-08:00

Let me entertain you, with these thoughts inside my head.
I promise they won’t give you nightmares, when you’re lying in your bed.
If I could put a few together, then they might make some sense,
And if I could relax, then I wouldn’t be so tense.
I think my guardian angel, is a devil in disguise,
And my rose coloured glasses have just hoodwinked my eyes.
The snow is black, when I know it should be white
And the moon is out in the day, and the sun at night.
I know I should be feeling, but what I’m just not sure
And I can hear a bell ringing, but someone is knocking at the door.
My heart it has a sign up, saying "Danger, Keep Away!"
"Gone to lunch – back soon – try again another day!"
It’s not that I’m not friendly, or want to get too close,
But I tried love once, not sure if I want another dose.
I’m back on my feet again, after being knocked down
And I’m quite enjoying, painting red the town.
So hang on in there baby, I’ll even throw you a line.
Even a heart can mend, given enough love and time.

Places

2006-02-05T00:58:00.000-08:00

There are places in this world
that make my heart skip a beat,
and feed my soul.
That view on the way to work,
as I turn the corner,
with the whole of the Bay
spread out before me.
The top of Mount Snowdon
on a cold day at sunrise.
A far off land, looking down the valley
at the bridge between two lakes in the snow.
Lying in your arms,
still warm in our afterglow.

……………….

Times Gone By

2006-01-06T12:56:00.000-08:00

I'm back in another time and place,
with a lover's fingers on my body,
and kisses upon my face.
Listening to the radio,
up at the stars we stare,
as very , very ,slowly,
he relieves me of
my underwear.

Remembering

2005-12-19T12:50:00.000-08:00

Once again on christmas morn
I'll arise with kids on the bed
opening their stockings.
Then downstairs to a hearty breakfast
and presents from under the tree.
There'll be laughter,
good food,
good booze,
and good cheer.
But underneath all that,
a gentle sadness,
because you're not here.

In memory of my mum.

Ghosts

2005-12-14T12:41:00.000-08:00

I glance up,
at the luminous full moon,
and saw clouds
and ghosts of past love
haunt the contours of her face.

A Brief Affair

2005-11-22T13:18:00.000-08:00

We meet again,
after far too long apart,
and fall back into each others arms,
and my bed.
That precious time,
wipes away the longing,
the fears,
and tears.
All too quickley,
we must part again.
And although I have a smile on my face,
my heart is heavy...
....till the next time,
my love,
the next time! mmmmmmm

Truth Hurts!

2005-11-04T18:45:00.000-08:00

You asked me to tell the truth tonight,
I couldn't.
I couldn't tell you,
How much you mean to me.
Even though I know,
I know the truth,
That would hurt you,
Destroy what you have.
I love you too much,
To tell the truth.

South For The Winter

2005-10-06T12:56:00.000-07:00

South for the Winter

I saw a flock of geese today,
In formation.
Migrating to warmer climes.
Wish that I could forget your love,
and follow them.
South for the winter.
Then maybe this frozen heart
would defrost,
and I could return in the spring.
Warmer.
To a fresh life,
and a new love.

Postscript.

Instead I’ll hire a sunbed,
and dream,
and hope....

Wishing

2005-09-29T14:38:00.000-07:00

Tonight I have vodka in my mouth
and you on my mind....
Wish it was the other way around!

Phoenix

2005-08-11T12:32:00.000-07:00

Phoenix

A call from above,
wakes me from my slumbers below.
I raise my eyes
and see a buzzard,
circling alone,
high in the sky,
then spiral down towards me,
catch a thermal,
and, like a phoenix,
rise again.
I carry on snoozing,
aware of its continued journey
and calling.
Half an hour later,
a deeper call, followed by the higher,
seduces my eyes skyward again.
She has found company
in her solace.
Were that I could do the same.

Diving

2005-08-08T11:11:00.000-07:00

My son diving, off the Barrier Reef

2005-08-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

My son has now returned from his travels, so I thought I would share one of my favorite photo he took whilst away. For those that have read previous post, it was nice meeting the man he's become!

Cures All

2005-08-08T10:14:00.000-07:00

Today was the first.
The first morning I had woken
and you were not the first thing
on my mind.
Instead it felt like heard of elephants
were stomping all over
my mind.
Hangover of all mothers!
I rose gracefully. from my bed.
Well, alright, got up, staggered,
sat down again, and repeated until
I could stand up straight.
Stomped downstairs,
in time with the elephants,
reached for the paracetamol,
and a glass of water.
I read the instructions.
‘For mild to moderate pain, including,
headaches, backache, toothache etc.’
That’s when I thought of you.
I had hoped the list might include
heartache.
That taking 1 to 2 tablets,
every four hours,
might cure the ache,
the longing,
the loss.
I guess not.
So I took them anyway,
and went back upstairs to bed.
With the elephants keeping me company,
in my head.

Life Imitates Art

2005-06-14T14:05:00.000-07:00

Farewell my love,
My one heart's desire.
Like a Lenkiewicz painting,
There is a you-shaped hole,
Where my heart used to be.
As you walk away,
So far away.
On soft summer nights,
Can you hear my sighs
Float on the light breeze?
That is not rain you hear
On your trees outside,
But my tears slowly falling.
Soon you will hear a torrent,
Pass by your door.
Eroding the soil,
To the earth's very core.
That's what you did:
Slowly wore me away,
'till like an ox-bow lake,
I was left stranded,
Isolated.
Waiting for some one,
To fill me again.
Farewell my love.

......................

Link to Lenkiewicz Paintings

Once on the site, go to page 2, Project 8 (Jealousy). The specific painting is called Man Watching Woman Walk Away.

my son and a friend

2005-06-03T15:09:00.000-07:00

my son and a friend
Originally uploaded by kimbo2.

New Style!

2005-06-03T13:32:00.000-07:00

Hitting a block at the moment,
but have been ordered to make a post,
so new format,
I will post my ramblings,
and maybe the responses,
(fueled by vodka!)
may release some prose!

Thought for today...

...Why is a good man hard to find,
but it's the bad men we enjoy the best!!??....

Favorite lyric at the moment..

'You moved like honey in my dreams last night
Yeah, some old fires were burning.
You came near to me and you endeared to me,
But you couldn't quite discern me.'

From Fiona Apple- Tidal
Slow like Honey

Anyone else heard of this?

Unconditional Love

2005-05-03T12:33:00.000-07:00

I saw a picture of you today,
and all those old feelings and memories
came flooding back to the surface.
How I used to hold you in my arms,
stare into those big brown eyes,
and fall into them,
and in love with you.
I swore my undying love,
that I would never let you go,
let harm come to you.
But you left anyway.
I saw a different face smiling back at me today.
Different from the one I last watched 8 months ago,
as I put a boy on a train.
Now I see the man you are becoming.
You've had your adventures
as you've travelled the world.
Now I see that self-assured confidence
shining through from the otherside of the globe.
You have the world
(and the girls!)
at your feet.
I am proud to see you grow, mature,
from boyhood to manhood.
I said goodbye to a boy, all those months ago,
I can't wait to say hello to the man, in a few more.
A boy,
A man,
My son.
Can't wait to see who you have become.

Fool For Love

2005-04-18T12:54:00.000-07:00

Unrequited love,
What a fool it makes of me.
I suffer , I hurt,
When his moonlike face, I cannot see.
Excuses I make,
To go to where he might be.
My longing, my thoughts,
Are only of he.
But what if?
Maybe?
He can return these feelings of mine,
We’ve played this cat and mouse game,
For far too long a time.
Maybe,
Like the fairytales,
It will all turn out just fine.
That’s it,
I know now,
I’ve finally lost my mind!!!!!!

Gone

2005-04-18T12:51:00.000-07:00

I want to make love to you,
In my bed,
So that long after you’ve gone
I can still feel you here with me.
Smell you,
In the bed clothes,
And pretend that you’re still with me.
The memory of it all
Will linger on,
Long long, after you’ve gone.

Senses

2005-04-18T12:50:00.000-07:00

My ears cannot hear you
My eyes are blind
My mouth cannot taste you
My tongue is numb
My arms cannot hold you
My will is weak
All sense and senses are gone
And only you have the power
To restore me…

Footsteps

2005-04-09T11:07:00.000-07:00

I follow in your footsteps,
Through the woods
Wondering who’s been here before,
With you
In the woods
And whose footsteps
Am I really walking in?
Do I really care?
I am here
They are not
I cannot find any reassurance
In that
Though I try hard to.
I give up on thought
And turn to nature
To nurture me.

Warlock

2005-04-09T11:05:00.000-07:00

He weaves a spell on me
Like an early morning mist
Makes my world full of possibilities
With just one little kiss
He pulls on a cloak of illusion
And takes me to a higher plane
My head and heart are spinning
Nothing again will be the same
He makes the impossible seem real
That even dreams can come true
I hope this magic will continue
Or I’ll have to learn a spell or two!!!!

Butterflies

2005-04-03T11:25:00.000-07:00

I wake up with him on my mind,
naughty thoughts going thru’ my head,
wanting him to kiss and touch me,
then drag me off, and ravish me in bed!
Sometimes we seem so very close,
others like we are miles apart.
Does he know he has this effect on me?
and gives me butterflies in my heart!

The Path Of Life

2005-04-03T11:23:00.000-07:00

I walk along the path
Towards the empty part of the shore
Away from the crowds and clutter
So I can clear my thoughts and head
The sun reflects off the water
Like an old 8mm film
Light refracting, blinding
I loose my footing
Slipping off the path
A raised hand shields my eyes
Like I’m hailing a long lost friend
I stop and look back along the beach
The jostling, noise, already forgotten
A gull cries insults from above
And once more I loose my co-ordination
In the sun
I step out once more, feeling the soft
Sand underfoot,
The warmth soaks thru to my bones
And my thoughts out of my head
I drink in the serenity and beauty
Of my surroundings
Nothing else matters

2005-03-30T11:32:00.000-08:00

And What Of Parenthood?
They’re cute as babies
Terrible when toddlers
And near on impossible as teenagers.
My only role seems to be as referee
Between their spats.
And then as if by magic
They turn on me!
But I’m preparing them for life,
The world outside.
How to win an argument
How to get out of a job
How to con money out of middleaged defenceless ladies,
And how to melt a heart
With one little smile,
Three words,
One kiss.

2005-03-29T12:39:00.000-08:00

New beginnings, old endings

His touches me in ways, no other has touched me
He moves me inside, in a way I’ve never been moved
His sings to my soul, a tune I’ve not heard before
He holds me in his arms, all consuming and safe
He has a look in his eye, I cannot distinguish
He has a place in my heart, I cannot relinquish

2005-03-22T10:39:00.000-08:00

Early One Morning
Early,
I park the car and watch.
Watch the waves mimic each other,
as they play chase to the seashore.
The sun is already high,
iluminating a yellow path over them,
and towards me.
I try to remember wave formation
I was taught over thirty years ago.
I can't.
So I just submit myself to its
serene beauty instead.
And wait for time to pass.

2005-03-16T13:02:00.000-08:00

Instructions!

Tread lightly underfoot
My love
Save you trample on emotions
Deeply hidden underground.
Touch softly, skin,
My love
Arouse in me deep desires
Slowly burning beneath.
Transform slowly, feelings,
My love,
Find the key to my soul,
Brightly shining, inside.

2005-03-16T12:57:00.000-08:00

Its All UpHill!
I walk up the hill
Slowly,
Drinking in the view.
I get to the top,
Sit, and catch my breath.
It’s difficult,
As the scene before me
Is breathtaking in itself.
The cliffs float down to the sea
Which disappears into the horizon.
The sun glances off the water
Making it difficult to focus,
On boats, as they cross the bay.
There is peace all around,
But a feeling washes over me.
Something is missing…………..
………..YOU!

Naughty!!!

2005-03-04T14:44:00.000-08:00

Naughty thought for today!

A naughty thought
Crosses my mind……
Crème caramel on me…..
……and you!!!!!!!

Happiness/Depression

2005-03-04T14:36:00.000-08:00

Happiness/Depression
Two sides of the same pebble.
Both come and go in waves
Sometimes the tide stays out,
And I tread the shores of happiness
The sun beating down on my back,
Light breeze in the air, joy in my heart.
Not a care in the world.
Then the tide turns,
And the waves come crashing down on me,
Pushing me under, I’m drowning!
Gulping for air, dark, lonely, scared!
But I fight my through, up to the surface,
I’m a fighter,survivour
I will get there,and I do,
I rise,back to the shore and the brightness,bursting.
Glad to free of the darkness,
Relishing each day,hour,minute,with gladness and hope
Family and friends,loved ones,known and those I’ve yet to meet.
Not wanting to waste a minute,
Drinking in the beauty of life,
Always mindful of the turning tide.

Oxymoron

2005-03-04T14:29:00.000-08:00

He’s indiscriminately discriminate with his feelings
Selfishly unselfish in what he does
Laughably serious with his thoughts
Quietly loud with his views
Childlike adult with his humour
Searchingly lost in his quest
Slowly catching me unaware

2005-03-04T13:10:00.000-08:00

Intimate Friends.

I met an old lover today,
Lyrics of Paul Simon
Sang in my head.
We sat,
Fully clothed,
In a pub,
Exchanging pleasantries.
Each holding eye contact
For a little longer than we should.
That look that you
only share with those who have
Seen you naked,
On hot sweaty nights,
And at your worse
With a hangover,
And bedhead,
In the morning.
Although no reminiscences were spoken,
We each replayed those memories,
Like old movies,
Through our heads,
And smiled our secret smiles.
News was caught up on,
And gossip on those we still have in common.
Time came for our goodbyes.
We walked outside,
Back into the world,
And reality.
Yet it did not seem
That either of us wanted it
To be the end.
It had started to rain,
He had walked there,
So it only seemed polite(and a good excuse)
To offer him a lift.
And a little more time
For words not to be spoken.
As he got out the car,
He leaned over and gave me a kiss,
Acceptable for friends,
But somehow not for an old lover.
He went his way,
Into his new life,
And me into mine.
But I know those films
Will play through my head,
At the dimming of the day.

What you see isn't always......

2005-02-22T11:00:00.000-08:00

I bare my soul, and it's a little too much to bare.
I watch what I say, but then that's not my way.
'This way to a downfall!' Is that the way I tread?
Ignoring all convention, I'll do it my way instead.
Starting where I finish, finishing where I start,
Following my senses, not always my heart.
I'd have to stop and listen, then what would I hear?
Echoes of lost loneliness, accumulation of fear.
What of love? That huge responsibility,
That puts your happiness at the will of others' destiny.
If honesty is the best policy, then why so many liars in the world?
And it's the lies we tell ourselves that are the worse.
So I carry on regardless, up the Khyber Pass,
Stepping over landmines, determined to have the last laugh.
Giving just a few glimpses, of my soul's very core,
So I'll finish where I started, not quite baring all!

Moondreams

2005-02-22T10:56:00.000-08:00

If I look at the moon and raise my hand
It catches in its beam.
Would that I could catch
And hold my dreams as easy.
I lie down on the blanket,
Looking up at the breathless
Starlit night,
And pull memories of you
Down next to me.

Missing you

2005-02-22T10:51:00.000-08:00

The night wraps around me
Like a cold wet blanket
I'd prefer you.......!

Learn Direct

2005-02-22T10:42:00.000-08:00

I saw an ad today,
'Learn Direct' it said.
So I did,
I learnt about life,
And love,
Pain and hurt,
Loss and grief.
And hope.
Hope and faith
In the future.
When's the next lesson?

Empty Heart

2005-02-19T13:33:00.000-08:00

Empty Heart
Originally uploaded by floots.

Rantings of a middle aged women

2005-02-19T09:07:00.000-08:00

Let me entertain you, with these thoughts inside my head.
I promise they won't give you nightmares, when you're lying in your bed.
If I could put a few together, then they might make some sense,
And if I could relax, then I wouldn't be so tense.
I think my guardian angel, is a devil in disguise,
And my rose coloured glasses, have just hoodwinked my eyes.
The snow is black, when I know it should be white,
And the moon is out in the day, and the sun at night.
I know I should be feeling, but what I'm just not sure
And I can hear the bell ringing, when someone is knocking at the door.
My heart it has a sign up, saying 'danger , keep away!'
'Gone to lunch-back soon-try again another day!'.
It's not that I'm not friendly, or want to get too close.
But I tried love once, not sure if I want another dose.
I'm back on my feet again, after being knocked down
And I'm quite enjoying, painting red the town.
So hang on in there baby, I'll even throw you a line.
Even a heart can mend, given enough love and time!

Full Mooon

2005-02-19T09:04:00.000-08:00

The full moon
Hangs in the night
Like an unspoken promise
Keeping softly spoken secrets
Of lovers at bewitching hour

temppixie

2005-02-19T08:31:00.001-08:00

I feel like a stone,
Skimmed across the water.
How you toss away so carelesly.
This heart of mine.